Monday, January 15, 2024

World Gone, Chapter 8: The Slow Crawl

It's finally here, my friends. The exciting eight chapter in my novel, and the return of the man from the first chapter; Harold. Things aren't going well for Harold, as you will soon see. I hope he's okay, but even I don't know. Enjoy the chapter!

This is probably not the coyote from the story, but it might be. 

In the eerie stillness of the pre-dawn darkness, Harold found himself slowly emerging from the clutches of unconsciousness, his struggle evident as he gingerly opened his eyes. The symphony of pain reverberated through every inch of his body, casting a shadow over his disoriented mind. As he grappled with the disconcerting sensation, a fog of sickness clouded his thoughts, leaving him in a state of bewildered contemplation.

"Where am I?" he pondered inwardly, his mind attempting to cut through the fog of discomfort. With each passing moment, he summoned an immense effort to clear his thoughts and piece together the fragments of his memory. Slowly but surely, the recollection of events began to unfold before him.

It took a moment, but the details rushed back with vivid clarity. He recalled the familiar hum of his truck's engine as he navigated the winding roads on his journey homeward. Then, an inexplicable phenomenon engulfed the world around him, rendering everything man-made invisible, and thrusting him into an abrupt and disorienting free fall from the space where his truck had once been. The vivid memory of that descent at a speed exceeding sixty miles per hour lingered, the intensity of the impact etched into his consciousness like a haunting refrain.

In the desolate aftermath, Harold lay sprawled on the unforgiving ground, his body a canvas painted with the stark evidence of his ordeal—bloodstains forming a grotesque tableau of his struggle. The passage of time seemed an elusive concept in this eerie realm of darkness, leaving him grappling with the unanswered question of how long he had been lying there, trapped in the merciless grip of unconsciousness.

When his truck seemed to vanish from around him, the world was slowly moving towards darkness. However, that dull, waning sunlight had since given way to a profound darkness, shrouding everything in a cloak of mystery. Harold, never adept at deciphering the celestial tapestry that was spread out above him, found himself at a loss, unable to discern the hour from the starry expanse above or the veiled sky that offered no clues to the passing of time.

Amidst this uncertainty, one undeniable truth persisted—pain, a relentless companion that hinted at the severity of his injuries. The agony pulsated through his every fiber, a silent reminder of his vulnerability and the potential fragility of life itself. Thoughts of mortality lingered in the recesses of his consciousness; he felt the looming specter of impending demise, a chilling realization that amplified the cold that enveloped him. 

Harold's gaze shifted downward, compelled to confront the stark reality of his altered existence. The space where his prosthetic leg once seamlessly blended with the contours of his body now lay empty—a painful void that mirrored the profound loss he had endured nearly a decade ago in a fateful car accident. That prosthetic limb had been more than a mechanical replacement; it had been the conduit through which he navigated the world, offering him a semblance of mobility and independence.

The passage of time had dulled the sharp edges of the memories associated with the accident, allowing Harold to, at times, create a mental barricade against the persistent reminder of his disability. Yet, in this harrowing moment, the absence of his prosthetic leg tore down that mental fortress, exposing him to the raw truth of his vulnerability. The label of "cripple" felt tangible, the weight of it settling upon him like an oppressive cloak.

As he lay there, one-legged and vulnerable, the unforgiving terrain beneath him added another layer of torment. Chunks of rock protruded from the earth, their jagged edges mercilessly stabbing at him—a cruel reminder of the inhospitable environment he found himself in. The pain, both physical and emotional, surged through him, intertwining with the harsh reality of his predicament.

Dying on the cold, unforgiving ground, Harold grappled not only with the imminent threat to his life but also with the profound depths of despair. In the solitude of his suffering, he couldn't help but ponder the unthinkable: if this was not the end of his existence, what depths of adversity awaited him? The mere contemplation of further tribulations intensified the anguish, casting a shadow over the already dire circumstances in which he found himself.

As he lay there, the frigid embrace of the night tightened its grip on his weakened form. Harold, not yet succumbing to the fatal bite of the cold, found himself caught in a paradoxical dance with mortality. The cold, though not lethal, seemed to seep into his bones, a spectral chill that mirrored the uncertainty of his fate. In the silent void, the passage of time became an abstract concept, marked only by the rhythmic cadence of his labored breaths and the palpable stillness that surrounded him.

Summoning reserves of strength he didn't know he possessed, Harold endeavored to hoist himself into a sitting position, the struggle evident in the grimace etched across his face. As he teetered on the precipice of uncertainty, contemplating his next move, a distant noise interrupted the stillness, a disconcerting presence lurking in the shadows of the unknown.

"Hello!" he called out into the enveloping darkness, his voice a tentative beacon seeking connection in the void. The echo of his own words hung in the air, met only by the eerie silence that seemed to stretch endlessly. Undeterred, he repeated his plea for acknowledgment, the desperation in his voice betraying the gravity of his predicament. Yet, the enigmatic entity, be it friend or foe, remained steadfastly silent, withholding any reassurance or threat.

Undeterred by the lack of response, Harold's gaze swept the landscape around him, a futile attempt to discern the source of the elusive noise. To his relief, his searching eyes settled upon a substantial tree branch lying just beyond his grasp—a lifeline promising both support and a potential means of defense. The daunting prospect of hauling himself toward it loomed, but the ominous silence from the unseen presence spurred him into action.

"Is there somebody there?" he ventured once more, the desperation now tinged with a hint of panic and frustration. The absence of a reply fueled his determination to reach the tree branch without further delay. Whoever or whatever lurked in the shadows had proven unresponsive, casting a shadow of suspicion over their intentions.

The night held its secrets close as Harold, with a measured resolve, initiated the arduous journey toward the sizable branch. Each movement sent screams of pain through his battered body, but the potential threat in the dark fueled his determination. The unknown awaited, and as he closed the distance to the tree branch, the questions that haunted his mind intensified—was salvation within reach, or did the ominous silence portend a more sinister twist in this harrowing tale?

Summoning every ounce of his will, Harold inched himself forward, each movement a testament to the unyielding determination that fueled his quest for the tree branch. In the dimly lit surroundings, a fleeting movement caught his attention from the periphery of his vision. At first, he dared to hope it was a figment of his exhausted imagination, a trick played by the shadows. However, as his eyes acclimated to the darkness, the unsettling truth unfolded—a pair of eyes, gleaming like twin orbs in the night, locked onto him.

With a sudden jolt, Harold's pulse quickened as he realized the source of the eerie gaze was a coyote, its presence revealed in the moonlit shadows. A primal tension hung in the air, the creature seemingly poised in a silent vigil, waiting with an evil intent. Never breaking eye contact with the watchful coyote, Harold summoned the last reserves of his strength to complete the agonizing crawl to the coveted tree branch, hopefully something that may ultimately save his life.

As his trembling hand clasped the reassuring solidity of the branch, Harold's relief was palpable. Yet, the unsettling stillness of the coyote persisted—it neither retreated nor advanced. The two beings, one human and the other wild, engaged in a silent standoff, the air charged with an unspoken understanding that transcended the immediate circumstances.

In a surge of desperation, Harold unleashed a torrent of shouted commands, his voice reverberating through the desolate night. "Get out of here!" he bellowed, the makeshift weapon in his hand swinging with a painful effort. "Go on, get out of here, you son of a bitch!" The coyote, an elusive silhouette against the darkness, held its ground, an inscrutable sentinel in the unfolding drama. It was as if it knew that Harold would make a tasty meal.

Time stretched thin, each passing second an eternity as the tension between man and beast hung in the balance. Then, as if the invisible threads binding them had snapped, the coyote pivoted and vanished into the obscurity from whence it came. Harold, his breath caught in the grip of anticipation, exhaled a sigh of relief. The immediate danger had passed, but the shadows seemed to linger, casting doubt upon the true nature of the encounter.

Physically drained from the adrenaline-fueled confrontation, Harold surrendered to the unforgiving ground, his body aching from the exertion. In the aftermath of the tumultuous encounter, he lay in the silence, his quiet prayers echoing in the vast emptiness, a fragile hope that everything would be okay in the uncertain journey that lay ahead.

Harold, despite his lack of religious inclinations, had never found space for a higher power in his life. However, there were moments when the act of prayer seemed to offer solace that transcended his rational beliefs. It struck him as somewhat paradoxical – if he didn't harbor a belief in a higher being, why would such a being extend its belief in him? Yet, in the chilling aftermath of an accident that left him lying in a narrow ditch where a road once existed, bathed in blood and shivering from the cold, Harold found himself grappling with excruciating pain and instinctively reaching out to a force beyond his usual comprehension – praying to a God he hadn't consciously acknowledged before.

As Harold uttered his desperate plea, he felt a compelling need to connect with a force beyond his comprehension. "God, or whomever you are, I implore you," he began, the urgency palpable in his voice. "Guide me back to my family, help me endure this nightmarish ordeal. I'm uncertain if this torment is confined to this desolate place, but if it extends further, I beseech you to safeguard my wife and infant son."

Amidst the throbbing pain that clouded his thoughts, Harold sought clarity. "I can't fathom your purpose in all of this, but it feels like you might need some kind of mental help. Whatever malevolence is at play, it's beyond sick and demented, even for a judgmental, and angry God." His prayer, a blend of desperation and defiance, echoed through the desolate surroundings.

He concluded his prayer as he always did, with an unwavering declaration of disbelief. "I've never believed in you, and I never will. No amen, no reverence. Just a simple plea: extend your aid to those in need." The words lingered in the air, creating an invisible barrier between the mortal and the divine, as Harold, fueled by determination, began the arduous journey homeward.

In the distance, a haunting howl sliced through the cold night air, sending shivers down Harold's spine. Unbeknownst to him, the source of the eerie sound lurked closer than he dared imagine, a sinister presence watching from the shadows, biding its time. The unseen observer, a specter in the darkness, awaited the unfolding of events with an amazing amount of patience. It was hungry, but it would wait.


Sunday, January 14, 2024

Samantha's Musings, pt. 2

 If any of you lovely’s are mommas or just like watching family vlogs, I recommend watching @thevanclanofficial @camandfam 

They have been my go to for many years and have often been one of the most open and supportive family channels I have ever found!

#familytime #books #love



Wednesday, January 10, 2024

Liberty's Exiles: Soulfire

Hey all, Rob here. Yesterday I made a compilation of some of my favorite songs from Liberty's Exiles fairly vast back catalog. When it came to picking a song from our 8th album, "The Price of Immortality", I decided to add "Soulfire". Not only is this song one of my favorites from us, as it's very melodic, with some wonderful vocal melodies, but I just love the lyrics. 

"The Price of Immortality" is the second in a progressive rock concept trilogy of albums. Soulfire is a very important character in this story, as she is the one that drives the main character of the story, "The Chemist", to improve the world, and end the curse of immortality. The lyrics tell of how the two had once been the perfect couple, and had planned on spending the rest of their forever together. Sadly, as with most stories, love is only fleeting, and must be limited by time. I'm sure you all know that tale. 

Anyhow, I thought I'd share the song with you. For each song on the album, not only did I throw together an image for the song, but I also wrote a bit of the story to go with the lyrics. I hope you enjoy this, and maybe you'll check the song out? I would if I were you!

Liberty's Exiles: Soulfire

"As the Chemist spends his life wrapped up in his work, trying to reverse the effects of the immortality "cure", he finds his mind drifting back to her face; back to Soulfire. She had been his reason for living for so long, that it seemed the more he thought about her the more that his heart would break. If only he had listened to her and devoted his life to her, instead of the "cure", none of this would have ever happened.

Once upon a time, a very long time ago, he had promised to marry her, and to leave his  role as one of the Saviors. But sometimes life doesn't work out the way we had hoped, and the Chemist would spend a very long time in a great amount of pain; both physical, and mental. He would fix his mistake... for her, for his one and only Soulfire."

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With a smile that can touch your heart
And a heart that will kiss your soul
With a body that’s a work of art
And a love that will swallow you whole

She lights your day with the blink of an eye
And her face holds a world of mystery
No one can ever have her
Cause the Soulfire belongs to me

Remember when we were young
Staying up so late just talking
The conversation done
Her arm in mine just walking

And as the days grew longer
And our love grew ever stronger
I knew she had sealed my fate
I knew that she was my soul mate

And though I promised to marry her
Sometimes life doesn't work that way
And it’s a love I'll know forever
Even if I never see her face again

Happiness dies leaving only memories
The future in a shrouded pain
Only time can change these feelings
Somehow it stays the same

She's my hearts desire
My one and only Soulfire
Her love lifts me higher
My chosen one, Soulfire

She’ll have my love forever
My one and only Soulfire
A gift from heaven above
My destined one, Soulfire

Thrown into another path
One that takes me forever
And how the gods must laugh
Another price that I pay



Monday, January 1, 2024

World Gone, Chapter 7: Ray-In-the-Green

Hello all, and Happy New Year. I hope this new year finds you all in good moods, and health. I don't know where I'm at in all of that right now, but I do know that I was able to push myself into writing the rough draft of another chapter of "World Gone". To be honest, I wasn't sure that I was going to able to. Since I can't really get anyone to read the previous chapters, I gotta wonder why I'm bothering to write more. Plus, I think it annoys some who don't get enough free time for themselves, so why should I take any time for myself? But the story was stuck in there... for now. I guess I'm just being stubborn. Whatever the reason, I'm glad I was able to write some more, and introduce a character whom I think will be pretty important later on. I guess we'll see. Until then, I hope you enjoy this chapter (you who, for some reason, would bother to read this). 

These are not the trees from the story, not even close. Why would I even use this picture?!


Chapter 7 – Ray-In-the-Green

In the brisk embrace of the cold morning air, he slowly stirred from the depths of his slumbers, his body protesting against the relentless assault of yet another night drowned in alcohol. The lingering agony of a pounding hangover clung to him like a heavy cloak, a familiar discomfort that had become an unwelcome companion in the early hours of nearly every day. It was a scenario he had grown accustomed to – a consequence of too many evenings spent drowning his sorrows in the bitter solace of intoxication.

This ritual of numbing his pain with alcohol was a well-established pattern, a recurring theme that saw a significant portion of his hard-earned paycheck vanish into the bottom of a grimy, well-worn solo cup. A vessel that had become emblematic of his personal struggles, serving as a conduit for the liquid escapism he sought to alleviate the burdens of his demanding life. If only he could break free from the grip of his own vices, perhaps his fortunes might change. Yet, the grip of routine was unyielding, and his loyalty to that age-old solo cup unwavering.

Ten years had passed since he first adopted this peculiar drinking vessel, and in that time, it had become a symbol of defiance against the inevitability of change. Rita Cole’s boy, Ray, found solace in his processes, a semblance of order in a world that often seemed chaotic. His attachment to the solo cup was more than a mere habit; it was a lifeline, a constant amidst the tumultuous waves of his existence.

Ray's peculiar rituals were not born out of mere caprice but were rooted in a desire to escape the relentless grip of obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD) that plagued his every waking moment. For him, life itself was a series of meticulous processes, and the only respite he sought was in the numbing haze of alcohol. The solo cup became his refuge, a sanctuary where he could momentarily silence the cacophony of his mind.

Once again, he found himself awakening in the embrace of nature, concealed within a small yet densely packed wooded area. Here, hidden from prying eyes, he could freely indulge in the discreet rituals that offered him a semblance of control. The solitary act of relieving himself and replenishing his solo cup with another round of numbing elixir was a routine he clung to, a momentary escape from the intricate web of his own mind.

As the morning sunlight filtered through the dense canopy overhead, casting dappled shadows on the forest floor, Ray grappled with the duality of his existence. The great outdoors, with its serenity and seclusion, offered him a respite from the demands of society, yet his reliance on the familiar solo cup was a stark reminder of the chains that bound him. In this delicate dance between routine and escape, Ray continued to navigate the intricacies of his life, a solitary figure hidden in the heart of nature's embrace.

Groggily rising from the cold ground, he ambled just a few short feet away to relieve himself of the remnants of last night's consumed liquor. The acrid scent of cheap vodka, his beverage of choice toward the end of the pay-cycle, lingered in the chilly air. These final days leading to the next payday were always arid, a stark contrast to the deluge of drink he craved. The prospect of an endless flow of alcohol was but a fleeting wish, one never granted in the harsh reality of his existence.

As he stood there, in the vulnerable act of relieving himself, a realization washed over him—soon there would be nothing left to drink at all. The last drops of solace from his dwindling bottle marked the onset of a parched period, a sober interlude that he dreaded more with each passing pay-cycle. Yet, his immediate concern was not the impending dry spell, but a startling discovery that eclipsed his current predicament.

Upon glancing down, he noticed for the first time that his clothes were conspicuously absent. A wave of bewilderment and confusion washed over him. "That's strange," he mumbled to himself, attempting to reconcile the fact that he was now standing alone and exposed in the heart of a wooded area. The details of disrobing had eluded his foggy memory, leaving him grappling with the inexplicable mystery of his own nudity.

Rather than succumb to the unsettling reality of being alone and unclothed in the wilderness, his frantic mind immediately fixated on a more urgent matter—the fate of his cherished solo cup and the precious bottle that had accompanied him through the night. The vessel that had become an emblem of his daily routine and the bottle containing the last remnants of solace for the month were now the epicenter of his distress.

Hurriedly retracing his steps to the makeshift bed where he had slumbered the night away, he was met with a horrifying revelation. Not only were his clothes absent, but his cup and the precious bottle were nowhere to be found. Panic surged through him as he stood in the midst of the secluded woods, vulnerable and exposed, stripped not only of his garments but also of the comforting companionship of his solo cup and the dwindling source of solace that was his final bottle of the month. The harsh reality of his predicament unfurled before him, weaving a tapestry of vulnerability and loss in the cold light of the morning sun.

He frantically searched the ground all around him, hoping that maybe the cup (and the bottle of course) had somehow ended up under a pile of brush, or dead leaves. He had no idea how long he had looked for his reward, but after some time he gave up, his body cold and cramping from the exertion. In his mind he wanted to scream out into the biting cold of the early morning, but found that he couldn’t force any sound out of his mouth. He was living some kind of crazy nightmare. The kind of crazy nightmare where an angry, and unforgiving God would dare to take the last ounces of solace from not only his sight, but from its very existence. And tucked within all of that worry, he couldn’t even begin to start worrying about the solo cup. This was the biggest shock for his early morning haze. His damned cup.

Frantically scouring the ground surrounding him, his hands moved through the underbrush, desperately hoping that his cherished solo cup, and the elusive bottle nestled within its insulating confines, might have found refuge under a clandestine pile of brush or beneath a layer of dead leaves. The quest for his salvation consumed him, oblivious to the passage of time as he tore through nature's camouflage, driven by the desperation to recover the last vestiges of comfort.

The duration of his relentless search remained elusive; time seemed to warp and twist in the disorienting dance of anxiety and loss. Eventually, his efforts waned, and he succumbed to the inevitable reality. Cold and cramping from the exertion, he stood amidst the desolate woods, the biting morning air seeping into his bones. The temptation to scream and release the pent-up frustration clawing at his insides hung heavy in the air. However, to his dismay, his voice remained imprisoned within, as if the very essence of sound had deserted him in this surreal nightmare.

In the midst of this bleak scenario, a profound sense of helplessness engulfed him. It was as though an angry and unforgiving deity had orchestrated this cruel twist of fate, depriving him not only of the tangible solace within his grasp but also erasing it from the very fabric of existence. The weight of his predicament pressed upon him, rendering him speechless and immobile in the eerie silence of the woods.

Amidst the maelstrom of worry and despair, there lingered a realization that cut through the chaos—the solo cup, an unassuming yet indispensable part of his ritual, had vanished into the void. A stark revelation that pierced through the haze of his early morning shock. The damnable cup, a constant companion through a decade of ritualistic imbibing, had been snatched away, compounding the surreal nightmare that unfolded around him. In the face of this unexpected loss, the significance of the cup emerged as a poignant symbol of his unraveling world, a tangible link to a semblance of order now irrevocably shattered.

Ray's desperate desire to continue the search for his elusive salvation clashed with the harsh reality of his physical exhaustion. The relentless quest for the precious solo cup and the dwindling bottle had sapped his strength, leaving him incapacitated and sprawled out naked on the unforgiving ground. In the absence of his liquid crutch, he discovered the fragility of his own resilience, realizing that much of his stamina had been drawn from the depths of the bottle.

As he lay there, the encroaching awareness of his surroundings manifested in the form of the impending "sticky thoughts." The intrusive and tormenting ideas began to seep into his consciousness, amplifying the grim reality of his current predicament. He found himself perched on the dirty, litter-strewn ground in the heart of a densely packed forest, a seemingly arbitrary dumping ground for the refuse of indifferent passersby. The detritus of others had become his unwitting companions in this desolate landscape.

Oddly, amidst the haze of his disoriented mind, Ray registered a peculiar absence—there was no trash around him. The realization struck him as profoundly strange, given the typical clutter that characterized this small but densely populated forest. His surroundings, devoid of discarded remnants, defied the expectations built upon countless nights spent in the solitary embrace of nature's refuse.

Yet, this newfound clarity also brought forth a fragment of recollection. Ray's memory struggled to pierce through the fog, revealing an image of a discarded couch that had served as his makeshift bed the previous night. Its worn upholstery and protruding springs had offered a semblance of comfort, a reprieve from the cold, hard ground. Now, however, the couch had vanished, leaving Ray to ponder the mystery of its disappearance in his addled state. The once-familiar makeshift refuge, though far from ideal, had been an anchor in the chaotic tapestry of his transient existence. Its absence added another layer of bewilderment to the surreal nightmare that unfolded, leaving Ray to grapple not only with the loss of his cherished cup and bottle but also with the enigma of a missing couch in the heart of this forsaken forest.

The weight of the waking nightmare became an unbearable burden for Ray, an oppressive reality that threatened to suffocate him. Devoid of the customary drink that served as a shield against the impending deluge of "sticky thoughts," he braced himself for the storm that awaited him. The absence of his usual crutch left him vulnerable, and he anticipated the intensification of mental turmoil before any semblance of relief would materialize.

Lying exposed on the frigid forest floor, Ray felt the chill of the morning air seeping into his bones. Stripped of both his physical and metaphorical defenses, he closed his eyes in a feeble attempt to shut out the harsh reality that loomed over him. In this vulnerable state, he initiated a familiar ritual—the act of counting. Each rhythmic count served as a desperate anchor, a lifeline thrown into the tempest of his thoughts, offering a momentary respite from the impending chaos.

As the numbers ticked away in his mind, Ray clung to the solace of this simple yet effective coping mechanism. The act of counting became a sanctuary, a deliberate diversion from the impending flood of sticky thoughts. In those agonizingly protracted moments, Ray fought to regain control over the unruly tide of his mind, using the repetitive counting as a mechanism to stave off the encroaching chaos.

After what felt like an eternity, the persistent counting began to weave a semblance of order amidst the disarray within Ray's mind. The relentless thoughts began to subside, their intensity dulled by the rhythmic cadence of his internal counting. Slowly, like a weary traveler finding respite, Ray slipped back into the embrace of sleep—a realm where the subconscious offered an escape from the waking torment.

For Ray, the dream world became a refuge, a sanctuary from the harshness of his waking reality. The promise of anything being better than the hellish circumstances he had found upon waking propelled him willingly into the comforting embrace of dreams. In the transient realm of sleep, he sought solace from the tumultuous landscape of his thoughts, even if it meant trading one set of challenges for another. As Ray surrendered to the embrace of sleep, he found a momentary reprieve from the relentless onslaught of his waking nightmare.


World Gone, Chapter 8: The Slow Crawl

It's finally here, my friends. The exciting eight chapter in my novel, and the return of the man from the first chapter; Harold. Things ...